Author: Jared Rigg

Founder of ConnectedApart.com and PoemsofaDad.com

Son

The time that stands between us,

Lonely,

Timeless ,

impossible ground to cover

Makes me weep.


For I wish that I could be your friend,

In your time,

so that we could have more of it together.

My dear son,

my dear boy,

whom I love more than life itself.

Have I left you behind?

Little blossom

Spreading your petals like fairy wings

Falling softly into a new tomorrow

Crisp, turgid, full with the effervescence of new expectations

Excited

But today, is where you’ve arrived

And everything is different.

I’ve moved too fast and fear

Have I left you behind?


I look into your bright glassy eyes

Wells of hope and happiness

Nervous uncertainty

Longing for security

Pools into which I fall

But I see you’ve arrived here, today

And know that everything is different

And worse

That I’m not here

for you

fear

That I’ve simply

left you

behind.


Oh my

sweet little blossom.

Strength is my weakness

Broken. As I sit here

the weight of chain mail holding down my shoulders

my neck

as blood drops through my brow.

Bodies fanning out.

What have i done.

To ride so far.

To kill.

What strength did I think this would bring.

Empty like a gallon after depositing its wares.

Blank.

It wasn’t meant to end this way.

No roses.

No children running to hug me.

Just disentry, disease, dear and dismembered corpses – living and gone to ground.

Who was I to think mercy was a gift.

My weakness is my strength.

For it has spelled a lifelong torture.

A torture that will follow me beyond the grave.

Tortured by the souls I should now carry.

We’ve been together

So long.

As winds wraps itself carelessly

through the dunes

Blowing lines like swirls of hair,

Wrapping around the love that I feel for you

Ever winding, ever shifting

On the fabric of my longing

To hold you

To feel you next to me

To hear your breath beside me as you fall asleep.

Brown, gold, hues of amber

Ribbons of mountains so tiny

Laid bare across one

And the other

Downward to infinity

Like the loneliness I feel without you

The fear that strikes me from the depths

Just to entertain

For but a moment

A day beyond you.

Warm air flows and swirls in korus and heaving breaths

Blowing out, and there at its end, the silence

Of the calm deathlike space between my out breath and the next in

Of the emptiness that I feel in all manner of my being

To pretend for an instant

Like the desert pretends to harbour water

That you, my children, might not forever be

Here at my side…

Check out my full line-up of poems in the holiday period

Happy holidays!

I hope you are all doing well and planning a lovely break with family and/or friends.

Take a look at my full line of poems going back to 2018. You might find something you like. Leave a message, share them, keep on liking PoemsofaDad 🙂

Thanks for following my musings! And let me take this opportunity to wish you a fabulous holiday period, filled with love and little ones 🙂

A new poem from PoemsofaDad – Kaleidoscope.

Dear friends, dear followers,

Come check out my new poem ‘Kaleidoscope‘.

Inspired by the ups and downs, tragedy and hope, of the current pandemic and dedicated to all who have passed and suffered at the hands of this dreaded virus. My thoughts are with them, their families and friends.

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Warmest wishes,
JR

A new poem from PoemsofaDad – You’ve never left me alone.

Dear friends, dear followers,

Come check out my new poem ‘you’ve never left me alone‘. Inspired by the spiritual – or was it a psychological, physiological, biochemical blip… whatever… by a sense of connection to something greater than me.

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Warmest wishes,
JR